Comfortably Numb

All it takes is that one drink. Clear chilled liquid passing down your throat, quenching your thirst. That warm hazy feeling afterwards. The bubble you don't want to break. Dream within a dream. Kaleidoscopic moments. Stars in the sky. Fireworks and star bursts. Giggles and laughter. Warm kisses and hot touches. Perpetual goosebumps. Trippy music and peaceful dances. Freedom and flight. Pink floyd Brings you back to life. Everything feels more alive. Every feeling is amplified. Every touch feels more real, yet dreamlike. The thin line between reality and fantasy blurs. You are falling in to a chasm and you are pulled back at the last moment. You are hanging from a cliff for dear life and suddenly you acquire wings. You are drowning, the world is closing around you and you are pulled out of the water. What is real, what is not? A thousand thoughts, always changing. Mad headrushes.

Memories rush by. Some happy, some sad. Others that make you want to kill yourself. Some proud moments, some regrets. Those are the clearest. The regrets. They never leave you, not for one moment. Not when you are sober, not when you are drunk. Like shards of ice. Piercing one moment, disappearing the next. Then the what if's and the what could have been's follow. Wistful feelings. Self introspection. Decisions made and decisions to be made. Confusion and clarity. Chaos and order. Light and darkness. Amidst all these, fleeting moments of happiness. Your first crush, your first kiss. The first time someone said I love you and you said it back. Happy childhood memories with your mom and dad. Morning prayers and good night kisses. Morning breakfasts and family dinners. The first day at school. Your first friend, and many more to come. The first time your dad said that he's proud of you. Your first vacation.  Small achievements and little worries. Little happy memories. You try and hold on to them and they slip away like sand. Letting go isn't an option. You need to feel its real, and not just dreams from the past. Better to live in the moment. Let life take its own shape. Go where it leads you. Take small steps. Live in the happiness, the freedom. Reminisce the good times, till the next drink comes. Pop a coin into the jukebox and let Pink Floyd make you comfortably numb.